mY LiFe

2008-12-14T02:09:00.002+08:00

shifted!
ask me for my link if u want!
till then! cya guys!

2008-11-30T12:20:00.001+08:00

yes... m&b sucks big time
qns that came out were from the smallest part of the tb!
and it's BLOODY 10 MARKS!
like what the hell right?

haix.
i love my mum!
she bought me a speaker!
yay!
she rocks!
i love u mum!

gonna work hard for macro!
jiayou sab!

2008-11-28T20:56:00.001+08:00

wahs!!!!!!
m&b ppr in exact 12 hours time
and i'm stil at chap 19
haha

sab sab! stop stoning! haha!

back to my books!

-isimplylovethewaywetalktoeachother.

2008-11-25T16:49:00.003+08:00

oki...
y must al these things happen to me when i m having exams?

last time, at this point of the yr,
it was edwin
yes. i was pretty much affected by the broke up that time

now, at this point
it was u
i was sorry that i had disappointed u
but have u ever bother to think whether i m disappointed as well
i really am
i dun mean it.

maybe that's ur character, like what khye said
maybe i should not asked so much out of u
but u r the 1st person in my life that i actually bothered doing sth aft i mk u angry
i nv once did that to anyone, including my parents nor my ex-bfs
but u nv bother to care how i feel
i'm always very sensitive to how u feel
and whether u will be unhappy if i ever do anything to u
but hv u ever really bother to stop n think that way?
i duno

i feel like escaping here to somewhere i dun need to face anyone
somewhere i can be honest to how i feel
somewhere i can proudly say "i do not hv any worries now"
somewhere where i can feel myself

is there really such a place that exist?

i wanna escape.....................

2008-11-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling damn sian now cox i made someone close to me angry.
haix
what have i done?

2008-11-24T04:15:00.001+08:00

argh! i really need to study!

i really need to stop
1) facebooking
2) msn-ing
3) stoning
4) sleeping
5) talking

argh!
focus sab!

2008-11-23T12:53:00.002+08:00

went to starbucks at west coast plaza to study!
but meantime
we did camwhored abit as well...

it's always fun to hang out with them! =)

apparently..

i m sick now

what a "right" time to get sick!

damn sian!

haix

sickness

please get away soon!

2008-11-21T18:57:00.004+08:00

it's always nice to take a short break while i m studying to meet up with the loves in my life!
met up with jac, clor n shan to cele jac's 20th!
oki! it was a belated bday cele by 2 days!
but i bet she definately wun mind, right jac?

camwhored quite a bit!
this was actually the first time we camwhored so much in a gathering
and thanks to chan khye beng's camera,
we managed to take a lot of nice shots!

this was self-taken!
arent we great?
the christmas tree was like super high
we had to find the right angle before we could get this photo.
spent quite a while to get the best angle
glad the photos turned out well! =)

a group shot! haha!
the loves in my life!!!

shan, the blur queen amongst us!

jac!!!!! my best bud! the star of the night!

clor!!!!!!!! =) she was actually on the phone when we took this!

another group shot...

apparently, only shan is looking at the wrong direction!

AND ONCE AGAIN!

HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY JAC!

LOVE U!

cant wait for another gathering!

meantime, i will go back n bury myself in my books!

2008-11-19T20:55:00.002+08:00

Someone forwarded me this through an email..
I was super touched when i first read the email
and no matter how many times i read this mail,
i still love this as much as i could

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Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room's only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.
Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fineview of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man onthe other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

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and how apt is it to me now...
i will treat everyday a gift to me..

thanks to all the love in my life.
thanks for making me feel loved
and i apologise if i failed to make u feel the same way
i will change to make u feel the same way

2008-11-17T05:18:00.002+08:00

i should be studying now!
but i just cant seem to concentrate
dun ask me why...
cox i also duno myself!
damn sian!
haix...

how how how????

someone please mk me study!
i wanna get good grades
but i hv no motivation to study!

i wanna watch alot alot of movies
1) city of ember
2) bolt
3) Four christmas
4) Quarantine
5) Igor
5) The day the Earth stood still
6) Twilight
7) Bedtime stories
8) Hell's highway: KM31
9) Yes Man

damn.. that's alot of movies..
but i'm sure more will be added to the list!
damn it!

recently,
i have been rather moody..
i often hide myself in my room..
trying to escape from ppl.
refuse to talk too much to ppl.
i find it hard to open up to ppl again.
what's wrong with me again..
can someone pls tell me?
haix
i wanna die
seriously
i HATE WHAT I M FEELING NOW...
definately not the best feeling one can get
haix
sian!

2008-11-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

the power of facebook!
everyone will comment when i actually change my r/s status!
it's fun!

2008-11-13T21:03:00.002+08:00

saya uijian tidak baik! tidak baik sekali.
saya tidak senang!
mengapa?
bagaimana?

sian!
i duno anything.
i duno how to do my project
i duno how to do my tut
i duno any single shit that has been going on.
i think i will die this sem AGAIN!

sabsoh!
start studying and stop thinking of stuff that you are not supposed to!
haix!

2008-11-13T09:58:00.000+08:00

yes... i'm being very emo currently.. nowadays...
tong asked me how come i so emo.. i also duno y
nigel asked me whether i m alright not.
not really...
so many things to complete this week
yet i have so little time..
sian!

oral later... hope i will do well for my oral... =(

2008-11-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

when will the next one come along and tell me
i love you?

it's been so long since i last heard that sentence le....

who will be the one?
i wonder...
i hope that person will appear soon......

2008-11-11T19:19:00.001+08:00

yes! i had a nice week!

being entertained by ppl everyday is so fun!
except for the fact that i had a quarrel with my mum
sian diao!
dun understand y thinks always turn out that way
but still...
haix!

anyways.
thanks lionel n khye for entertaining me everyday lately!
thanks!
madagascar soon k????
cant wait for that to happen! =D

and...
gonna be crazy for me these few days..
wed - test
thurs - oral
fri - proj

how can i survive? =(

2008-11-07T18:14:00.002+08:00

hmm...
glad i went out yest...
a break before my xiong week starts 2ml..
yes...

went to watch coffin with date, joey and her friend..
and apparently, joey's friend is date's neighbour... how small is singapore man!
yups..
back to coffin..
it's not a very scary movie...
but definately a sad one.
and truth to be told
i wun want my loved ones to kana any misfortunes..
i rather be the one gettin all the shits...
just like how i hope things will be now.. though it's hard to change the situation now.

anyway,,
it's good to have dinner outside once in a while =)

and thanks alvin
thanks for ur swedish meatballs... =)
being a nice friend, shared it with ppl..
spread the love right?
lol...

and talking with ppl is fun! woots!
i just enjoy talking to the right ppl! =)
they just make my day!
thanks ppl!

and joey:
hope u r feelin alright now...
so sorry that i didnt managed to catch u in time...
so sorry!
i'm feeling so guilty now la!
so sorry!

oki...
syngery later
meeting later
haha

2008-10-31T03:59:00.001+08:00

sometimes..
i just feel i m moving away from u all
alot...

dun ask me why i feel that way
but it is a fact
ya
i hate myself for feeling that way
haix

2008-10-30T03:02:00.002+08:00

yes!
it is finally GLC!!! finally!
GLC is gonna be over in a few hours time
no more dancing till wee hours..
no more going to studio earlier than others but leaving later than others as well!
YAY!!! =)

hope everything will be fine later!

2008-10-29T18:23:00.000+08:00

seriously!
i cant wait for friday to come
to go shopping with joey!
to get out of hall and breathe the fresh air outside
to stop thinking so much and enjoy myself totally...
but of cox
i still stuff undone! =(

2008-10-29T15:11:00.001+08:00

oki...
seriously...
my leg hurts..

i pulled my right thigh muscle
i had an abrasion on my right knee....
how can i dance for GLC 2ml?????
haix...

suck!

2008-10-28T16:00:00.002+08:00

hmm...
supposed to go to floorball de
but i decided to skip..
dun ask me why
i duno why also

was talking to joey just now
then i did finally realised how much she had moved on..
ok...
i didnt realised until now la
i knew it all along i guess
but how about me??
am i still standing at where i m
refuse to move on?
actually i myself dun even know
all i know is that i m still thinking

haha
let's hope what joey n i planned to go will come true!

hmm...
anyways
i feel that love is really such a miracle thing
说来就来,说走就走...
dun really know how to handle love anymore...

and i really got a feeling i will be single for a very very long time
until the next one who came along can really get me out of this love problem...

and i really love talking to baba and khye
they always make me feel so relaxed
and i now officially deemed them as one of my most important ppl in my life! =)

2008-10-25T12:51:00.002+08:00

yups...
just finished neo's dance...
damn tiring...
and his dance add on to the no of bruises i already had..
=(
but i think this is really a dance that need alot of emotions and feelings..
we must really feel for the dance in order for us to dance well
yups..
i think it is really true
and i really like this kind of dance...
beatrice and ethelyn actually said i danced like a chinese dancer...
at least not a balleria can le..
haha!

anyways
thanks to gerald, lynette and cheryl kang for coming over to cheer me up!
thanks so much!
i m rather glad that they are always there for me
thanks so much dears!
i miss those rag days........................

and oh ya!
CONGRATS TO GERALD IN GETTING THE SECC CHAIR!
yups!
congrats!
think u n lynette will do a GREAT job!
i believed they can do it together!
yups

i m currently in a rather okay mood!
neither feeling happy nor sad!
dun even know whether this is a good or bad thing
hmmm....

anyways..
sometimes,
i feel that i m really very stupid in taking up the dance ic role
when i can actually enjoy my life.... =(

2008-10-25T00:45:00.003+08:00

saw this on my friend's blog and i decided to take the test and try.. it's so true...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

anyways
just finished dancing today
as usual, the senior girls attendance is rather bad
haha!
i nv had once full attendance for senior girls...
when can i have a full attendance ya???

hmmm...
synergy 2ml!
scared i cannot wake up!
how???
haix!

2008-10-24T10:36:00.003+08:00

feeling much better now after what happened yest
after i talked to ppl about how i feel
obviously...
i m in a better mood today
just hoped that ppl dun come n spoil my mood can le

yups...
and there's a few ppl i wanna thanks

thanks joey for always being there for me
u know me the best
thanks

thanks khye for listening to me
feel so much better talking to u yest

thanks baba for showing me concern
when u know i was feeling demoralised
and not asking me what exactly happened
yet allowing me to vent my anger at u

thanks matt for showing concern as well

thanks lao ba for noticing it
and cheer me up

thanks gerald for always notice my mood swing
thanks for being there for me

thanks lynette for cheering me up
and acted as if nothing happened when u actually saw me crying in the toilet

thanks ppl!
i love u guys

oki ,..
shall go back to study!

=)

2008-10-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

just finished seniors dance segment today
but today sucks totally for me
just suck

firstly,
i have to handle the seniors alone as khye was away for tech crew training
i had to manage both the guys and girls choreo when i myself dun really know the guys' part
i had to handle ppl's fustration as well as my own one
cox i cant show it to ppl

mengapa ya?
saya mau everything to be baik baik saja
tetapi all of them tidak helping saya
saya mau give up
tetapi saya know saya cant do that
bagaimana????

oki..
whatever it is
i not going to care so much

2008-10-23T16:56:00.003+08:00

yes!
lesson finished for the day..
but dance gonna start in an hour time for me...
not for everyone...
cox i need to go and choreo dance for the seniors segment!
yups..
left with 4 more eighths and we completed the whole dance!!!
yay!!!
and i love the senior girls segment
but i m just worried that ppl might not like it.. haha
i also duno!
haha!
whatever!

cant wait for today to be over
then we wil finish choreo-ing le!

2008-10-22T15:34:00.003+08:00

argh!!!!
these 2 weeks gonna be very very busy for me!! sian!!
why??? let me tell u!!

22/10/08 wed
1900-2200: sheares dance
2200: CMB meeting

23/10/08 thurs
2000-2200: seniors segment

24/10/08 fri
1830-2000: Ms Yong's techniques class
2000-2200: sheares dance
2300: sec comm work session
2300-0100: floorball training

25/10/08 sat
0900-1130: Neo's choero class

27/10/08 mon
1800-2200: sheares dance
2200: GLC tech run

28/10/08 tue
1800-????: GLC full dress rehearsal
but! i got
1830-2000: Mr Fan's class
2000-2200: Neo's choero class

29/10/08 wed
1900-2200: sheares dance

30/10/08 thurs
GLC!!!!

31/10/08 fri
1800: NUS students achievement award ceremony
sheares night cycling

1/11/08 sat
0900-1130: Neo's choero class

how am i going to survive these 2 weeks???
plus!!
my dance prac will only end at week 13...
and this week is week10!!!

haix!!
someone please kill me
someone please force me to study during my free time!!!!!
boos!

2008-10-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

met up with cheryl loy and kianwei for lunch at the deck
it's been so long since i last met up with kianwei
yups!
nice meal with the right ppl! =)

and
joey's bday 2ml
and i already got wacky ideas on what to do to cele her bday le
heehee
joey!
please dun kill me when u know abt it!
yups!
haha

for now
i will go n study!

2008-10-20T03:41:00.002+08:00

yups!
the result of which items i got casted for is out!
i got into 2 items: Neo's and Leonard's items...
apparently..
i heard from jesmine that leonard's items are for the freshies..
so i duno whether is it a good sign or bad sign that i got his item
cox i duno whether i will be able to shine in there....

i m not in the same items as weivien, joey nor matt
which make me feel quite sad
yups...
cox if i have the same items with them
i think i will feel better

what makes me sadder is that both weivien and joanna got into the same items
that means....
they both are very zai...
zai enough to be in the same items
for both somemore
and joanna is the one i always think she is very zai......
yups...
haix...
let's hope that i can shine in the other 2 items as well.....

i think one of the possible reasons that can possibly make me feel better is that
i got into neo's items.
yups
both joey n i find him cute
so...
yups!
at least got someone to look at when i dance
haha!

but lucky joey got william in one of her dance
boos!

i suddenly feel quite sad
it is not exciting that i got casted for 2 items somehow!
sian!
haix!

2008-10-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

yups
haven been updating for a few days
buaya week officially ended on thurs!
thank god it is finally over!
yups!
and mingzhe knows that i m his buaya!
damn sian!
=(
but he drew a very cute pic of me!
thanks so much mingzhe!

and matt is my buaya!
no wonder he refused to tell me who is he buaya-ing!
haha!
but he is a sweet buaya of course!
thanks matt!
will update the pics i took during buaya week soon!

did i mentioned that i got synergy evaluation last sat???
i took back my results yest!
haix!
i think i did damn cui!
here's my results and comments:

Plies: 4.3/5
-relax fingers, strong control, nice presentation, arching tabletop

Battement tendus: 4.3/5
- turn in, watch fingers and flowery wrist

Grande battements: 4.7/5
-watch your supportng leg, strong kicks but quite jerky

Jumps: 4.5/5
(no comments =( )

Combination: 4.3/5
-good movement quality, confidence lost, nice turn out at end, good jump at beginning
(i personally agree cox i really lolst my confidence as that was the first time i tried with music and the 2nd time i do the routine)

General comments:
-watch breaing of wrists in Port de bras. Keep hair away. Work on presentation, technique already has good foundation

haix! above is my results... dont think i did extremely well nor extremely bad....
but stil..... duno!

had synergy open auditions today!
dont think i did well also..
hope i get casted!

oki! gtg!
bye!

2008-10-15T10:25:00.001+08:00

ec3303 midterm later
but i duno how to do!
i only studied for a few pathetic hours
think i m so so dead la!
hope leeling they all know how to do
so that i cam copy!
haix!!!!!!!!!
help me

and school is from 12-8 for me today
then sheares dance at 8-10
then i still need to do proj later
and buaya week stuff
i'm so tired
and so dead!

boos!

2008-10-13T05:05:00.003+08:00

buaya week had officially started...
everyone involved is busy buaya-ing their buayees..
but something i must admit
block c is not as happening as last yr buaya week..
maybe cox 8short is no longer here...
so no more such stuff de

and i definately must say that i am super lucky to have a rather good buaya this year again.!
yups!
i simply love my buaya!
below are the stuff he did for me so far!

the house that my buaya built..
i duno why, but i realised that my buaya loved to give me house
salem gave me a house last yr also.. with a farm..
anyways. candyman (my buaya) will put food for me inside this box almost everyday
the pot of plant he gave me...
he placed it at the level 4 common area..
was rather shocked when i received the plant cox i will never expect someone to give plant!
but ohwells! it's still a unique present ya?

the dog i received before i sleep on sat mornin!
hmm!
and i must really thanks nigel for the wonderful meal he cooked!
he cooked in the total of 4 dishes!!!!
thanks gel-gel-bird!

below is a pic to show u what he cooked!
but i only took 2 pics~

the grilled fish! or rather, the baked fish!
it is super nice!
the nicely-baked potato covered with cheese!!!!
this is my fav!!! cox of the cheese!!!!

2008-10-08T15:08:00.001+08:00

haix haix!
bahasa indo test later
yet i m still watching show + slacking
duno whether i will know how to do the test later not
let's hope i know how to do
and wish me luck later

dance n eogm later
gonna be nominator again!
haix!

2008-10-07T23:27:00.001+08:00

yes!
took a few hours break from studying to go over to KR for MAF
i think this yr MAF was more fun than last yr!
kudos to both SH Block C block commers and KR C Block Commer!
well done!!

i think partly why i enjoy this yr MAF was because the group i m in is super fun
with ppl like joey, vk n hanzen in the same group as me
and the KR ppl as well
we are all crazy ppl
who love to have fun and nth else
super nice!!!!!!

oki!
enjoy of laughing!

back to studyin!
jiayou sab!

2008-10-07T16:56:00.002+08:00

went to munchie monkey for lunch and study with nigel today
1 of our topic was rather morbid...
was talking about death
and i totally agree with him when he said
the worst thing is us dying before our parents
i think is very true
imagine the pain ur parents will have to go through losing a child
imagine...
they took care of us,
without any complaints
giving us all they have
they will not demand anything from us
they will always be there for us
no matter how many times we disappoint them
they will always be there to pick us up when we fall
they always ensure that they give us only the best and nothing else

seriously
i cant imagine a day without my parents
but the selfish me will hope that i will not die before my parents nor my loved ones
cox i dowan them to go through the pain of losing a loved one
i will not want that to happen
just cox
i m selfish

=(

oki..
this is such a sad post

gonna study for my bahasa test and do my assignment which are both due 2ml
=(
boos

2008-10-06T14:02:00.002+08:00

i m not in the mood to study for bahasa or do my ec3303 assignment
so here i m..
watching shows once again..

yups.. watched dreamgirls yest...
before i slp n while i m doing my manicure
was a rather nice show
love their songs,
esp "listen" by beyonce...
it's a super nice n touching song..... well.. i watched jurassic park 3 as well..
yups.. yups..
i know the show is kinda old le.. but i still cant help but watch it.
i think this is the 1st trailer movie i watched when i m young.
jurassic park 1 i mean
i still even had nightmare after watching it when i m young.
haha
cant believe so many years had passed le

yups..
sometimes
i really hope that i live in a fantasy land
where there are no worries or anything
just u n me
happily ever after

but after u grow up
u will know that happily ever after dun exist anymore

2008-10-06T00:39:00.002+08:00

yes.
just had sheares dance prac today..
damn tiring but at least
i stopped thinking abt all the stuff for that 2 hours...

supposed to go to reporting stats proj meeting
but i was late
and i called them when i reached hall..
they are abt to finish le
so they asked me not to go..
sorry guys...

anyways
i m afraid to receive calls or sms from any of my family members nowadays
i duno what will happen when i pick up their calls or read their sms
i duno

like what i told edwin over msn just now
maybe it's me..
i'm just tired of being the one putting in all the effort
when actually the people around me dun really give a damn.
why should i care so much
when my sis is abt to give up le?
why should i care so much
when i duno what else i can do to bridge the differences?
why should i even bother to try
when they should be the one trying
why m i always so hesitant
when maybe things will be better when i tried in the first place
why should i?????

i think the reason why i m still trying cox u all are my family members
ppl who are so close n dear to me
ppl whom i will never want to lose
ppl who can call mine..............

sometimes
i just want to retreat to my little corner
so that no one knows that i m there
hide in my little area
so that i can neither hear nor see anything
hope that i m stupid
so that i wun be able to realise anything
want to me alone
so that i can just be myself
hope that i can truly express myself to all the people around me
so that i no need to fake anymore
hope that i m a simple girl
so that i wun think too much when i m faced with any prob

2008-10-03T17:30:00.001+08:00

yes... i just woke up from my afternoon nap..
damn tired from yest
but i dun feel happy at all.
i feel excluded...
whatever it is
i m damn sian
yups

going to synergy later
hope can dance my unhappiness away despite my aching muscles...

just wished that u r here with me n i m always happy

2008-10-03T10:02:00.001+08:00

sometimes,
i feel that i m getting more distant from all of u
i duno why also
damn sian
should just shut myself in my room
and forget abt it

2008-10-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

yes.. lesson ended at 4 today and i have been slacking since then

i presume it is gonna be a hectic weeks for me...
very!
i duno how! haix..

sometimes, i wonder whether i can carry on being so strong..
i duno when will i ever stop acting happy in front of other people and pretend that i am fine.
yes.
when?
when can i ever really show my true feelings to the people around me

i remember i was talking to hanzen once.
discussing why people nowadays like to pretend so much
like to pretend that they are alright when they are actually not
i agree with him
i dun understand why also
i m actually one of the people he was referring to
n seriously, i have no ans for him
i duno why people have become like that
maybe i just dowan other people to know how i truly feel ba..
i m maybe scared that others will be able to know every single thing about me
i m really very scared...
really...
haix...

when can i ever shout out my true feelings out to the people around me
when can i?
when can i actualy move on?
move on from the nightmare i m living in now?
move on n face the new life ahead
people thought i m actually coping well...
but seriously, i m not at all..
i m still the same old me...
i m still standing at the same old position waiting for the same old person
but i really wonder whether the person will know not.........
i dun think so la..
people thought i m fine le
really
but deep down, i m really not fine
i think a few people know

went drinking with joey, nic n edmund at holland v the other day
they asked me that qns.
i really duno how to ans.
i just laughed the qns away
yes
i m still afraid of facing the qns............

argh!
suck!

i seriously do miss u.....r u missing me too?

2008-10-02T13:15:00.001+08:00

skipped my lect today..
damn sian
karen n i left the lect halfway
didnt really wanna listen in lect
stil got tut later
jiayou sab =)

-can i ever tell u that i still miss u?

2008-09-29T08:43:00.001+08:00

macro midterms in less than 2 hours time...
not prepared
wanna die
feel like slping!
someone pls slap me to wake up
think i will cui!
lol

2008-09-27T03:42:00.002+08:00

just finished watching a FABULOUS DANCE SHOW - SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE!
this is actually the FIRST time i actually watched this show right from the start til the end
i still remember when i first watched the first season years ago
i was telling myself "how come the dancers cant carry off any routines at all?? arent they supposed to be the best dancers in america????"
and after watching a few episodes in season 1, i stopped watching
i have never catch any of the seasons ever since then
until recently when ppl start showing me videos of sytycd season 4
that's when i started watching this show again
and i tell u
i m LOVING IT!!

here's are the top 20 dancers!!!!
presenting to you a few of my fav dances! (couldnt remember all but i will never forget these 3!)

no air by katee and joshua!

bleeding love by mark n chelsea!
the other 1 by katee and joshua yet again!

and you got to love this couple!

they are simply TERRIFIC!

I'M GLAD THEY ARE THE COUPLE RIGHT FROM THE START
like what the judges say "they create magic when they dance together!"

i'm proud of joshua n katee!
they are actually the top guy n female dancer!
and the un-trained dancer, joshua, actually emerged as the winner!
i just LOVE HIM!
katee as well!!

woot!
i'm loving this season!!!!!!

2008-09-25T17:22:00.001+08:00

went phuture n obar yest
obviously, i didnt enjoy myself.
music was oki but the ppl there suck

in short, it was rather a horrible night for me
yups

anyways
i m currently mugging in biz lib..
let's hope i can finish another lect note before heading back hall....

back to studying!

2008-09-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

dance audition today
let's hope everything will trun out fine

2008-09-14T01:35:00.001+08:00

i miss u =(

2008-09-09T19:37:00.002+08:00

gonna be very busy these coming 2 weeks..

today
need to choeoro dance for dance audition

wed
JCRC rally.. apparently, i agreed to second nigel for DOCA, so i need to be there

thurs
STJ.. supposed to have dinner with allies
but.. sharon n i had something on.
we have yet to tell john n hy!
think john will kill me for sure

fri
meeting alan??? going out with joey???
VC meeting???

sat
duno whether i m going for blk c karoke session not
but i definately have
NUS dance blast concert + nehpok wing gathering

sun
sheares dance seniors meeting
blk c MAF celebration

mon
my only free day so far!

tue
sheares dance audition

wed
JTS
maybe there will be allies gathering as well

thurs
sheares dance audition

fri
lorry supper
joey's performance

sat
NUS dance ensemble concert + allies dinner

see... so packed yet so little time
i think it is a good thing as well
gonna need to find things to fill up my time
so that i wun think so much!

oki
time for me to do my bahasa hw!

2008-09-03T05:25:00.002+08:00

today is one of my sleepless nights...
could not sleep...
neither m i able to study nor do anything...
dun ask me why cause i seriously duno y...
sian!
why must i meet such a situation..

anyways
played floorball for IBG today
and yes
we won champion for that!
cheers to everyone who put in their effort to play floorball
u all did block c proud!
yes!

i m currently in a "what should i do" state.
talking to hanzen just now make me feel better
though he could nt give me any solutions
he still make me feel that at least i can talk to someone
talking to someone whom can understand how i feel

and i m looking forward to all the gatherings on the way!

2008-09-01T09:03:00.002+08:00

cant believe that people in uni are so childish!
so old le, still do such stuff...
but what to do??
through this incident,
it shows that we are actually more mature!

2008-08-30T17:15:00.002+08:00

it's been quite sometime since i last updated my blog!

school had officially started for 3 weeks le...
workload is definately not light...
dun even understand a single thing that the lecturers are talking about..
which seriously suck! haha!

anyway... i'm just damn disappointed in myself...
didnt do up to expectation for rag this year...

to all the rag dancers out there:
thanks for being there with me
thanks for supporting me and believing in me.
thanks for that! i cant say much! thanks so much!
though we didnt grab the best presentation award, but you all are winners in my eyes!
thanks for everything!

wanted to blog about alot of stuff when i started writing..
but i'm at lost of words..
suddenly....
duno why also...

i will write again another day

sampai bertumu lagi! (bahasa indo language!)

2008-07-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

i always admire people who have courage to fight for what they want in their life
cox i will nv have the courage to do so.

yups. it's been bloody long le.
and i m still stuck here
at where i was months ago.
with no/slight improvement from whatsoever.

useless girl!

sometime i wished i was much more stronger and daring...

but will that day come?

2008-06-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

Arts camp started le. yups. so did rag dance
i'm glad there's ppl who came back from SECC to join rag dance
sincerely, i m damn happy to see so many ppl sign up
yet i know that they sign up does not naturally means that they wil join
and yups.. it did showed in the attendance on the 1st and 2nd days of prac.
i dun blame them for not being able to come this week
cause there are like 3 faculties holding their camps.
yups.
science, business and arts (worse come to worse, arts has the biggest number of people in the whole NUS)

i feel guilty...
seriously.. i have never feel so guilty and bad before
yups.
i feel that i m not doing my job
i m not doing the right thing...
=(
haix

2008-06-20T06:50:00.002+08:00

SECC had ended a few days ago!
i felt lost at that point of time.
like huh.. SECC ended le...

it's always great to know that you have friends around you who will always be there for u
friends u know who wun forsake u in times of need..
i love u guys so so so so much!
thanks for being my mental support all these while.
thanks so much!

anyways..
another chapter of my life has began!
rag 0809!

yes!
when i took rag dance ic up, i know it is never going to be easy
anyways, nth is easy to start with too!
i know i still have friends by me to support me in whatever i do
i know u guys will support me in a way or another..
i know i can make it.
i dowan it to chui in my year!
seriously, if it chui, i will confirm blame myself...
let's hope everything will turn out well...

to all ex-raggers and current raggers,
please come back on 23d june 2008, mon, at 7pm..
we will be meeting all the SECC people who signed up with us!
yups!
so.. we need you

2008-06-13T21:07:00.001+08:00

SECC officially started today!
yay man!
it was good.. freshies were rather oki..

y do i hv time to blog during SECC???
cox now it's in the midst of cluedo station!
and i;m waiting for the 1st group to come!
haha

i'm damn bored! damn bored damn bored
haha

lucky i brought my laptop along
at least there is something to keep me entertained!
=DD

i'm tired too!

hope the campers enjoy themselves!
=DD

2008-06-11T01:25:00.003+08:00

meeting just ended...
1st time in this week that the meeting ended before midnight!
finally!! *happy*

anyways.. just find ppl are weird creatures!
haha! random comments

i'm dying!
seriously dying!
someone pls help me =(

2008-06-09T21:56:00.002+08:00

BUSY is the word that i will use to describe myself now!
i totally have no time for other stuff!!
just finish SECC trial camp last thurs and fri..
though it is not the best trial camp i have been to,
but it is definitely rather tiring for me cox i have to run the whole show together with my comm!
i certainly think all the late nights are worthwhile cox everyone in the comm is willing to scarifice for one another!
everyone is willing to do their part and once they have finished theirs,
they are willing to help others.. yups...
though it is really nt everyone, but it is majority of the people!!

anyways..
rag is killing me too!
need to think of alot of stuff now and my brain is rather packed with stuff!
i have no time to think what i really want!
just like the SECC mass dance, i took damn long to actually come up with the dance
so u can imagine how freaking long i will take to come up with the rag dance =(
but i'm glad we had the BBQ session that day! =)

anyways, just hope that people dun accuse of others what they nv do before
haha! argh! damn sian!

2008-06-03T02:25:00.001+08:00

it's been a tiring day for me.. and i bet alot of ppl..

cox i'm tired.. i tend to be more moody!
more moody than ever. even to my own friends..

this suck!

i'm super tired now but i m super reluctant to slp now!

suck!

i wanna slp!
yet i have to wait for my hair to dry!

=X

i hate the life i m leading now!

somehow, i hoped i didnt join so many stuff!

2008-05-31T04:05:00.002+08:00

been VERY busy lately!
alot of stuff for me to handle over the past few weeks.. piled up til i cant breathe...

this week is hell week for me..
monday got rag! clean up the rag area from 10am to like 8pm??
it is super long!
i'm like super tired after cleaning up la!

kinda forgotten what did i do on tues!!
haha! heck!

mel visited me on wed! damn happy! =D
went to zouk with her but she left earlier! =(
anyways
it was a bad experience for me that day! totally disaster man! i cant stand it
argh!
but the music was DAMN good when i left
but the thing is i also no mood to carry on staying there at that point in time le
=(

thanks alvin for sending me home on early thurs morn!
haha! if not nic and i have to squeeze with everyone to go home!
yay!
but didnt slp when i reached home cause i need to settle some stuff
so i was damn tired when i reach back hall!!

fri is a hell day for me!
i had like 2 meetings in the same day!
had SECC meeting from 11am to 3pm!
it was really the longest SECC meeting i ever had as compared to last time!
but i think it was fun yet effective!
checked results at 3pm
seriously hope i can su it! =)
and SNDCC meeting at 7pm!
super tiring la!
type and type non-stop!
haix!
but the rag bbq was super rewarding!
had lots of fun there! =)

sometimes, u just cant stand how some ppl can get so irritatin!
haha!

seriously

2008-05-23T19:40:00.003+08:00

i'm like finally 20...
LIKE WTH lorx! definitely i'm old! =(

anyways. this is how i actually spend my bday!
went back to hall for meeting on tues..
not only 1 but 2 meetings.. so i have to run here and there!
haix.. this is negative point for joining more than 1 holiday comms.. haha!

then after that, went to fong seng for dinner + supper with the rag main comm...
as usual, i didnt eat cox i dun feel hungry! haha!
while walkin back to hall, i received calls to wish me happy birthday!
thx for calling! and staying up till midnight just to call me! =D

anyways, i got ponded immediately once i entered the gate
damn sian!
kana ponded on level 1, boys toilet! super sian!
and thx jungseong for lending me his top cox i was wearing a white top!
haha!

after that, i went to bathe!
it was super cold la..!
so i better bathe!
if not i will fall sick, as the poor me was already sick!

thanks to everyone who stayed up late to sing birthday song to me!
thanks everyone who is around in blk d! thanks thanks!
i was super touched despite the fact that the stupid ivan actually pushed the trolley to actually make it that they wanna pond me!
i was damn scared to get ponded la!
but lucky i didnt get ponded! heehee

and also, special thanks to matt, jieshen, alvin for baking the super chocolately cheese cake for me before u all go to redang!
thanks so much!
was so touched! =)

and! i GOT ponded again!
thanks to edmund and joel!
they came back to hall to pond me specially! -_-"
haha!
no choice but to let them pond me!

aft that was late night talking to baba, mok, khye, grace and seemun!

went for lunch at cathay with alan!
sushi again!
haha!
we ate alot and talked alot!
was a good bonding session i guess

dinner with seemun + alvin
yups!
thanks alvin for the treat!
damn ex i know!
but thanks!

goodie bags packing after that!
haha!
the 1st time i spent my bday packing goodie bags!
was rather fun i guess
but tiring!!
we packed like 800 goodie bags in every 40 min
haha!
WE'RE FAST K? haha!!
but i love th fact that i m actually helping ppl on my bday! =D

anyways
i wanna thanks the following people

thanks ahbi, yean ching, mandy, bright, britt, daphne, Nithiya, priscilla, mel, junming, kanghao, xiaoqing, hasan, peishan, shermin, jaburu, yeelian, joyce chee, sean, peilin, lenny, candice, zhenchuan, cheryl for facebook-ing me

thanks wansin, jonathan, pengkoon, yuyou, andy for friendster-ing me

thanks keith, nic choy, alvin 4, ivan, david, shaoxiang, john, mel, qingjun, hanzen, liaozhiming, daryl, kelvin for msn-ing me

thanks joey, jason, sweefoo, kianwei, clor, alan, ck, jojo, peck lu, mel, sam, val, zhihao, cindy, jac, paulina, junsheng, long fang, weicheng, andy yan, gen, william, zongren, yb, alicia, deb, aaron, xiuhua, meimei, edwin, yh for sms-ing me

thanks jason, edmund for calling me

thanks seemun, dean, junseong, khye, grace, mok, xuhan, sue, yingxia for wishing me face-to-face

thanks dean, js, yonglin, shida, mingfeng, edmund, joel, sweefoo, chris for ponding me

thanks matt, jieshen, alvin, terence for baking the cake

thanks for all =D

2008-05-20T16:18:00.002+08:00

thanks to all my lovelies from crazy6!
thanks for celebrating my bday!
i was super touched when i saw the cake appear out of no where!
u seriously didnt know how touched i am when i saw the cake!
and it's been like AGES since i last celebrated my bday with the gracious ppl!
i miss u guys!!
more photos will be uploaded soon!
jac and clor! send me the photos soon!

below are some photos that i took using my phone cam!

and it was massage at true spa with joey on sun!

must admit the massage was damn shiok!

i was so relaxed la!

but too bad!

i cant join cox of money constraint! =(

and joey surprised me by calling me yest!

i just simply LOVE her!

just hope i will c her 2ml, during my bday!

went to sentosa with seemun, fish n hanzen to search for places in sentosa

and i must complain that the WEATHER is freaking hot!

damn warm la!

cant stand it!!!

nice mr hanzen actually send me back home to take my specs cox i forget to bring to hall yest!

thx so much hanzen!

rag & secc meeting later =(

boos!

both meetings crash again!

and i cant meet u! boos!

haha!

looking forward to sat! 1805 meeting!

yay!

finally get to see EVERYONE since we last met!

i miss u guys!

n maybe sun got plans too??? haha!
whatever it is!

thx ppl!

2008-05-18T21:05:00.001+08:00

it is the breaking session i must agree
hearing ppl breakup makes me feel sad
this just brings me back to the time when i break up
so now, i have to be sensitive when asking them question
yups..

went to zouk last wed..
was fun fun fun
saw lots of different kind of ppl!
but i must agree that the music was PERFECT!

it's in a few days time
but yet
i wasnt looking forward to it though!
haha!

2008-05-17T14:23:00.002+08:00

bye cheryl! I WILL MISS U!
hoped u enjoy yourself when u r over there!
dun forget to come back n visit us when u r back in sg!

yups!
went to airport to send cheryl off...
haiz.!
bye my lovely neighbour! she will not be around anymore!
sian!

and i watched made of honour yest!
it was nice n funny!
i will recommend u guys to watch it..
oh ya!
it's romantic too!

2008-05-16T11:42:00.001+08:00

Below is the photo taken at shokudou..
our food... haha!
damn hell lots la..
still left out shan's main dish, but it is actually the same as jac's!
yups!
and this is the 151 bus that i took with seemun, matt and alvin to island creamery!
damn cool right?
but i think it has lesser capacity!

anyways.

shocked news 1 after another

but to be truth, i have expected that to come sooner or later ba..

duno..

but i hoped he is coping well..

wanna ask him how is he, but i'm afraid he may not want to talk about it..

so might as well leave it aside 1st..

yups..

movie + dinner later (maybe)

but confirm have rag meetin..

boos!!!

2008-05-16T02:10:00.002+08:00

and so...
my life went on...

i'm so sick and tired of everthing..
i'm glad i went out on wed..
at least it kept my mind occupied i think
stop me from thinking abt unhappy moments
yups..

cleaned up rag area on thurs
thouht we will only spend less than half a day to clean
but in the end, we ended up cleaning for the whole day
supposed to be FULL-comm...
but it ended up only MAIN-comm.. (other than shida n jaden)
like what the hell la!
caused me to be late in meetin jac, clor n shan!

anyways!
excited to meet my girls today!
it's been quite sometime since i last met up with them le!
they hv always been the regulars in my life..
ppl who are always here for me
ppl who make a point to meet up during my bday to cele with me
ppl who will always be here for me everytime
and somehow when i m faced with some prob
they will always contact me and ask me how m i
without me telling them that i m not feelin good..
weird feelin eh?
i think so too
seems to me that we have the telepathy!
i like that! =D

*emo*
sorry to all who i have been hurting lately
sorry to all who are worried about me
i hope i will be on my way to recovery

2008-05-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i wonder.. where's the real me??
what do i need in my life right now..
who do i need??
i myself also duno..
i hate myself for being like this
this is not how i used to be
i'm trapped in a situation where i duno what to do will be the best for me already

i apologised to all who i had hurt before
and also ppl who i m hurting now
i sincerely apologise
no matter what reason i give is useless..
cox sometimes, once the hurt is done,
it will never be reversible.
never.....

i must say i m really useless..
for landing myself in this situation.
i also duno what i should do to make myself know what i want

lately, i have been rather anti-social.
refuse to go out to meet anyone
except 1 or 2
refuse to go back hall and meet ppl
refuse to do anything but keep myself in the room
bottomline - i simply refuse to socialize
sorry to all i pangseh before
cox the current me is no longer in the mood to do that

was talkin to jeremy on my way back home
he told me i actually knew the reason why i m moody
y i m not the usual self
but i just simply refuse to acknowledge nor accept it
maybe he is right??
maybe i m right??
cox somewhere deep down in my heart
i think i m longing for sth to happen

this feelin suck

oki..
matt is in cp
and meeting joey later
hope meeting joey will bring my mood up abit

2008-05-11T23:54:00.002+08:00

just finish watchin this show
ending quite expected
yups... now.. i'm watchin this now!

cant believe that i am actually watching show after show..haha!

2008-05-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

was talking to joey on the phone just now!
oh man! i really miss her like hell can!
she updated me on her trip..
n it sound fun!

seriously, i'm glad i got close to her.
yups.. she's someone i can really talk to so freely n openly.
i'm not afraid of telling her stuff!
n i m definitely looking forward to our meeting on tues!
n wed also!
just hope that she dun pangseh me can le
haha!

anyways
was talkin to ally abt him..
i was sad to hear that news..
sorry ally!

i miss all my friends.
i'm like rotting at hoem doing nth
not gonna do anything at all
which suck totally!
haha!

i miss u joey loh leyu!
haha! she is so going to kill me when she c this photo!

2008-05-10T20:43:00.001+08:00

been watching this show today...
it's a nice show i think...
yups..
very warm and touching...
makes me wonder alot alot of things....

will i ever have the courage?????
haix!

2008-05-08T10:07:00.001+08:00

OKI!
last ppr in a few hours time! =D
yay!

i'm going for ppr soon!
jiayou sab!
leave early if u can!
just a few qns!
u can do it de!
jia you jiayou! =DD

i will be free after that! =D

2008-05-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!
exams haven ended yet!!

jiayou sab!
last paper le
then u will be free le
=DD

2008-05-02T03:08:00.002+08:00

i'm tired from studying!
haha!
ESSAY mod really suck big time! haha!
argh! i wanna slp!

a few more readings to go n i can slp le!
jiayou sab!
u can do it de
woot!

2008-05-01T12:51:00.001+08:00

i want these...
here are some of the clothes that i want...
i didnt post everything up..

but save moneY!!!
dun waste money sabsoh!

haha!
back to mugging!

2008-05-01T11:35:00.001+08:00

oki... i JUST watched finish 爱上千金美眉!
yups yups!
it's a nice show! rather predictable..

oki.. the guilty sab will start studyin for her gek1012 now.. so till then! cya guys!

2008-05-01T06:17:00.002+08:00

was watching 愛上千金美眉 instead of studying
and yups! i know this show is rather long ago le..
was actualy disgusted at how ugly ppl can get..
this show showed it...
snatching ur friend's bf...

this show also sets me wondering at stuff......
will that day be here for me???
will it???
or will it just disappear forever???
maybe... i duno!

whatever the case

2008-04-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

just woke up not long ago!
i slept from 4-10++ pm la..
seriously, my day n night are seriously the opposite!
haha!

anyways..
i finally watched finish 凶城计中计 le!
yay!
it's nice.. and the twist of the story is damn cool.. haha!
love it...... =D

anyways.. gonna watch ANTM cycle 10 now..
i'm like falling in love with this series too..

2008-04-30T14:11:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!!
Ec2102 finally ended!!
my most difficult mod is finally over!!
so now left with 2 more mod n i can scream
"MUMMY! IT'S OVER!!"
haha!!
well!
this is how my table looks like yesterday!
it was maddness as i was rushing like mad
trying to remember as many things as i could.
writing as many times as i could for the same question
trying to understand the logic behind all the shifts of curves and movements along the curves
trying to squeeze everything into 1 piece of paper
which i didnt managed to utimately!
haha!
nevertheless, it was finally over and i m glad!
=D

and in the midst of studyin, i still managed to take a break..
need to like regain my energy before i continue studying..

i was like studying like mad until breakfast at 7
but the uncle started breakfast later...
it's the 1st time i actually queue for breakfast at 7 in the morning
with so many people..
maddness! haha!

and the bored me decided to take some photos before i go for paper...
jiayou sab!

2008-04-30T05:07:00.003+08:00

studyin ec2102 now..

still got alot of things to remember..

which suck!!

mugging hard now..

jiayou ppl!

2008-04-29T06:31:00.002+08:00

630am in the mornin.. and yet i have not slp yet!
i feel awake somemore.. which is bad la. haha!

anyways..

studyin macro now.. and i realised i had forgotten everythin that i had learnt for midterm..

boos!

nvm.. i shall work harder for ec2102 2ml!

jiayou sab! u can do it de! woot!

anyways, it's khye's bday 2day..

so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN SHAN HIMBO!

haha!

and also

good luck to joey, seemun, joyce huang for reporting stats later!

u all can do it de

and meanwhile for sab

better work hard! =D

jiayou to all NUS students! =D

2008-04-28T07:42:00.001+08:00

i'm a HEALTHY girl in the making
haha!
been eating breakfast everyday..
skipping all the suppers...
eating regularly..
woot!
sab soh! well done!

but actually, it's bullshit la..
cox i haven been slpin through the night
burn my nights away studyin..
and only slp in the day, when i m tired..
that's is y i managed to able to "wake up" for breakfast..
always be the uncle's 1st few customers.
haha!

anyways..
exam period is here
yet i m thinking abt stupid stuff..
sab!
stop!

i miss u mel!
=DD

2008-04-27T14:25:00.002+08:00

just came back from lunch at ginza
went to buy groceries from sheng siong =D
haha!
need to stock up to survive through these 2 weeks..
need to stay awake n study till 8 may!
it's still like still so long later!
haha!

oki!
gonna get back studyin!
=DD

MUG hard sab!

2008-04-26T06:32:00.002+08:00

EC2101 later... yet i haven slp
haha!
actually is i purposely stay awake..
wanna study as much as i can!
haha!
hope i can do well!
seriously!

i dun wanna screw this sem up again!

seriously!
if i ever screw this sem up!
i can just KILL myself!
haha!

let's pray everyone will do well!
haha!

breakfast in 30mins time =DD
time to wake JOEY up soon! =DD

2008-04-25T12:38:00.002+08:00

oki...
EA finally ended.. duno how did i do.. but heck la..
hoped that i did oki!
haha!

anyways..
went to online shopping and saw alot of things that i like
tempted to buy
but whenever i think of the bills, it just stop me from buying immediately

argh!
how how how??

bday comin... maybe i should come up with a list of items that i want! haha!
it's evil la..
i wun do that de la.. haha!
but i wanna go shopping!

tanjong pagar, here i come! =DD

2008-04-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

i'm tired..
but i'm staying awake cox we gonna celebrate sze hui's bday later...
argh!
tired *ywans*
talking about this,
sze hui, happy birthday!

anyways..
1st ppr gonna start later..
hope that i can do well..
if not i will die..
like what xue ying says, we already pass le..
just depend on how well we pass..
haha
let's hope so..
i dowan to take this mod again..
not anymore.

n i m a aspiring threatre studies wannabe..
i wanna take threatre studies next sem!
any takers??? haha!
i think it will be FUN FUN FUN!
yups!

anyways..
exams are officially starting!

good luck ppl!
jiayou!
u all can do it de!

quote of the day!
count the no of days u hv to ur freedom,
not the no of days ur exams start
and hang in there
cox exams gonna end faster than u imagine...

jiayou ppl!

2008-04-23T07:11:00.001+08:00

argh!!
I'M SO SLEEPY!!
haven slp yet!
haha!!
but i wanna study finish 1st then slp for awhile then continue studying..
sab!
must jiayou!
just tahan a few more days then it will be over!
yups!
hang in there!

all the rest of the ppl having test now,
hang in there too!
u all can do it de!

mug hard!

2008-04-22T19:28:00.002+08:00

was talking to joey just now..
and she told me sth
"dont count the number of days u had left before exams start, but count the no of days to the end of exams"
i think this sentence actually makes sense..
haha!
oki.
so let me count the no of days to exam end. =D

16 days left to the end of exams!
so i just tahan for 16 more days then i will be free! =D

29 more days to 21/05..
will i be happy???
or will i not???
haha!

heck!
meanwhile, mug hard ppl! =DD

2008-04-22T05:22:00.001+08:00

been studying since 1am..
but just not studying alone..
i'm studying while watching show..
haha!
but stil..
stuff still get into my head!
haha!

chest feelin much better le..
not so much pain le...
paper is on fri...
25/4 - 8/5...
damn long la...
well spread???
i hoped so..
at least i can focus on 3 mod now..
hah!

mug hard ppl!
=DD

2008-04-20T21:05:00.001+08:00

supposed to study..
but i slack all the way..
arghs!
this is bad..
i need someone to tell me i should study!
haha!
arghs!

2008-04-19T06:58:00.000+08:00

everything's a close chapter now..
yups.
i'm glad i cleared doubts with u..
i'm glad i had u in sheares hall with me..
if not for u.
i also duno whether i can survive through my darkest period in sheares hall
u know how difficult it is for me to go through that period
i really love u lots!
muahx!
thx so much!
love u!
*u know who i m referring to if u happened to chance upon my blog!*

2008-04-17T08:38:00.000+08:00

it sad to see how ugly ppl can get..
i feel bad somehow.
haix..
sian..

mug hard sab!

2008-04-16T17:30:00.001+08:00

week 13 already... this means.
exams gona start soon!
this suck... alot of stuff unread! alot...
i duno whether i will be able to do well this sem not..
hoped i can survive this sem! if not i will go commit suicide! haa!

in the midst of mugging..
i did stuff to relax myself!

this is how my messy table looks like! and i trying to take a short break!

oki! back to proper! i shall start muggin hard now le!
cya guys!

and good luck!

2008-04-14T03:31:00.001+08:00

somehow..

work is getting heavy

i know that

but i m still not really motivated to study..

this sucks.

haha!

2008-03-29T14:40:00.002+08:00

Hmm!
a rather relaxed week?? i guess so
now i'm slackin at home!
no more dance! it's finally over!
got to rest i guess!

went to maroon 5 concert on tues!
they were great!
i simply love them!
thx for bringing me there! =D

st james on wed.. met ken n his friend there
i will not go st james anymore
the music sucks! haha!

family day at sheares today.. but i dun think i m going
gonna stay at home n slack! haha!

and i'm not gonna spend anymore money!
gonna save..
so dun ask me for lunch + supper
unless it's ur treat!
cox i'm seriously in need of money!
and i m not jokin!

2008-03-23T11:49:00.002+08:00

DU is finally over.. that means i dun hv to dance til wee hours and slp late!
but dance workshop is on from sat - wed.. boo!
but i reckon will be fun cox i jut atteneded the sat's lesson
and sunny lao shi is damn hot when she dances..
i bet everyone will agree with me when they see her dance.
anyways.. below are some photos taken using joey's cam before it's battery turned flat!

grace and i! benedict n i
yingxia and i

gonna go do my work and attend dance later (i guess)
so til then
cya guys!

2008-03-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

the girls in the midst of full dress rehearsal at fort canning..the figures that CMB pub did with metals.... nice right?
and oh! did i mention to u how much i love her?

here are some photos taken at CMB concert. though i dun have alot... but still.. here's some =D

2008-03-20T04:02:00.001+08:00

it's 4am n i'm still awake...
CMB concert 2day..
it was splendid i guessed
but i was running like a mad dog..
to n fro..
need to rush back to dressing room to change into my next item's costume n make-up..
and then back to the stage to get ready for the item.
imagined i actually had 3 items in total..
which means i had to run 2 times...
which is maddness........
but still..
all of us did our best..
had lots of fun taking all the stupid stupid photos too..
photos next time =)

2008-03-18T13:46:00.001+08:00

midterms are finally over..
open house is finally over too..
now left with CMB concert (which is tomorrow) and DU (which is on fri)
i hoped i can pull through all these....
have been dancing for at least 4-5 hours everyday now..
it's been so long i last danced so long per day..
somemore is 3 different dances for each day
someone can just kill me..
i cant take it...

anyways..
i hoped everything will just stop..
i dowan it to continue...
people, just shut up if u duno the truth..
if u wanna know the truth, then pls jolly well ask the people involved.
stop everything
cox it's hurting me

2008-03-10T10:34:00.001+08:00

exams are killing me....

hope that i will do well for econmetrics and macroeconomics.. =D

2008-01-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i last posted a post in my blog. yups. so i reckon no one ever visit my blog for a very long time also le ba?

it's a new year le. somehow, i feel so lost..

2007 had been an eventful year for me. i had been through alot alot.
i made alot of new friends and also lost a few.
been through alot of ups and downs but all these ups and downs made me stronger except that fateful one, which i am still holding on

thanks to all who had been there for me all these while, esp during the nov onwards period.
it's my darkest period in 07 and i'm glad i had u all.
thanks jac for being there. there's alot of times when u know what i m thinkin even though i nv tell u anything at all, esp that time during our last NM lect....
thanks val for always being there for me, just to listen to me nag. thanks for all the late nights talks, thanks.
thanks seemun my dear! i'm so glad i had u. really. it's cause of u, my stay in blk c has become a more memorable 1. i'm glad i had u. i'm glad u r always there for me.
thanks deb. thanks. for everything. every single thing.
thanks joey for understanding me. u're 1 of the few loves i had in blk c. we shall jiayou together, k? u know what i m referring to.
thanks cheryl my bimbo neighbour. thanks. without u, shdance will not be as colourful as it is now.
thanks clor. though we seldom talked to each other, but when we meet up, we confirm hv alot to talk abt. thanks for always being there for me. thanks for listening to my naggings and allow me to pour my sorrows upon u.
thanks mel for every single little thing. thanks mel. i miss u
thanks for everyone else who appeared in my life.
thanks!

thanks for u. though i still haven forget and somehow hopes something will happen, i still hope u tk care of yourself. jiayou.

i love u all..

2007-10-16T12:57:00.000+08:00

gonna die from all the deadlines and assignments soon...

projects one after another. this is maddness..

and SWOC interview yesterday
dun think i will get it..
haha
i also dun really care la.. have then have
dun have then dun have.

haha..
save me!! i'm drowning!!

2007-10-09T09:48:00.000+08:00

test 1 aft another..
i'm gonna die...

mass ponding session in my block yesterday.
lucky i didnt get ponded cause of my scream..
haha..
trying to study but i cant..
nth seems to be able to get into my mind..
sians...

anyways..
thanks for the warm milk yesterday
because of the warm milk,
i was able to slp well..
thanks! =)